Dating life today
In her spare time, she can be found blissed out in a bookstore or writing fiction of her own.She loves Oscar Wilde, organic beauty products and Italian food.
At this point, the Tinder pen pal has become a classic archetype.
When I’ve been rejected or hurt by guys in the past, I’ve turned that hurt onto myself, thinking there has to be something wrong with me for them to treat me badly. When a friend told me years ago that the guy I was dating at the time wasn’t good enough for me, I thought she was crazy. But I also feel like they’re just going to hurt me, the way those kinds of guys would pick on me and diss me in high school. The minute I catch a whiff of bullying or controlling tendencies in men, I delete them from my life because I know what it feels like to be the victim of bullying.
I’ve always been so insecure thanks to being bullied that I thought guys I dated were better than me. It’s horrible waiting for the other shoe to drop all the time. I constantly feel like I’m going to be judged, so I have to keep reminding myself I’m worthy of love and I’m not in high school anymore, that I know who I am and words can’t hurt me. Even though I’m still trying to be nicer to myself, I definitely won’t stand for that kind of treatment again from anyone — and especially not from a romantic partner. Sponsored: New dating app guarantees no wasted time.
No matter what compliments I receive from other people and no matter how well-dressed I am, deep down I still feel like that kid who just wasn’t attractive and got treated like she was a social pariah at times.
It makes me suffer from social anxiety because I’m terrified I’ll be rejected.